Many people have told me they don't understand why people who love writing can be moved to tears by a single sentence, can sit at their desks for hours writing, can quickly distinguish between kindred spirits and fellow writers, and those who are simply strangers, silently exchanging respect and finding solace and warmth in strangers amidst the hustle and bustle of life.
My personality is always somewhat contradictory, especially evident in my writing. I can be aloof yet meticulous, sometimes quiet to the point of timidity, yet surprisingly proactive and persistent in pursuing my interests. I often find myself adaptable, possessing a knack for shortcuts and laziness, yet I am stubbornly persistent and determined in writing and putting my ideas into practice, displaying a pioneering spirit and adhering to my own style with caution. I've always admired the Taoist concepts of tranquility and serenity, and in literature, my desire to excel, coupled with a strong sense of envy and yearning to complete my work, is palpable.
This somewhat burning desire made me feel like a thousand troops galloping through my solitary writing. Favorite books, reading others' works, fellow writers, people I cherish in my heart, strangers I met by chance… all these images nourished and inspired me greatly. I no longer worried about whether what I said was as accurate as the truth, but instead strived to voice my own opinions, to write about my life and the thoughts and images in my mind.
A pianist once said, “A first-rate artist must have a strong desire to do well, high-intensity and effective training, and a sufficiently strong desire to express themselves, even a desire to perform.” I think a first-rate writer must possess their own philosophy and style in a reality that can distort people beyond recognition, and dance the dance that best suits them most movingly.
The most difficult thing in the world is nothing more than finding what suits you, pleasing yourself, without any servility or indulgence, pleasing yourself with a high level of aesthetic appreciation—this is often much harder than pleasing others. The latter only requires love. Finding a way to please oneself with small joys is a difficult exploration for Orange, who often ignores and suppresses her feelings. But this is the theme that one must uphold in life and in writing, using rich experience, wisdom, and skills. It's also the fulcrum that makes me feel that life is very interesting.
Online literature is booming and very lively. This liveliness has created many people who write all sorts of rubbish to grab a share of the pie. The writing is full of plagiarized formulas. I'm not criticizing CEO novels or time-travel stories, nor am I criticizing the trends of the times. In short, we are currently in a relatively relaxed economic environment where as long as you can handle it and it's convenient for everyone, especially in cultural consumption.
I think it's really too lively. At first, I worried that if I didn't promote myself, my writing would be lost in the sea of words. But after thinking about it, I'm just an insignificant novice. Rather than changing my aspirations and principles for money and worries, I'd rather spend more time studying hard, practicing programming and English, and doing part-time jobs on weekends. Writing seems to have a low barrier to entry, but it's actually very high, and the returns are meager. To realize the wish of being able to eat dumplings every day just by writing, I'll have to wait for fame. Fame is a distant dream. The quiet solitude of writing teaches writers far more than fame. Its significance lies in making you willingly endure hardship until one day you find peace, no longer feeling depressed or resentful, no longer believing your talents are unappreciated, and instead find the ability to entertain yourself with the highest aesthetic sensibilities, constructing a world of comfort and freedom through your writing. Only then have you truly entered the door.
Constantly exploring and understanding your own writing style in a bustling environment, cultivating your own aesthetic taste, and writing in your own unique way—a style that others cannot imitate, a style that best suits you—is the meaning of writing.
This is my understanding of writing.
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